Speechless

dislike some of my friends around...but dunno what to do...
feel tired talking with them..can i just ask them "SHUT UP PLEASE!!"
I know I am complaining...I shd good with friends around...but SHD I?? all the time??
"PLEASiNG" PEOPLE is what we should do in our life?? BULL SHIT MAN!!
I am trying to be happy all the time...enjoy my life..with family and friends...
but I feel that for everything we have now, I am putting efforts to make it a reality..no like some people, stay at home and hope for everything...envy ppl...
of course I envy others also...but what I keep on reminding myself is why people can be like this and I cant?! I hate people say this to me :"why u always busy? u got so many activities....go out here and there but not with us??" are u care about my life?or u just feel unhappy with what I have??
I hate people asking me what I am doing...seems like I need to inform u for whatever I did and will do...EXCUSE ME!!even my sis wont ask me such things...we still respect each other and give ourselves privacy...I want peaceful life ok ma?! PLEASE~